my perfect ring of scars

I wish life wasn't so empty so dull
the candle flickers just before it goes
                                    out
and i can never have you

the
                                    pieces put back together only resemble the beauty that once was
the true     er of the pearl is gone forever
to reamain
                                    away, its not meant to be

not for me
                                    anyways

did you ever let it go
did
                                    you ever really know what you were doing
did you ever really care

did you ever take the time to realize
how hard i tried to pull through
to make it work
but you didnt
                                    care

you were never there
but you
                                    didn't want to be

swimming in regret
deeper,
                                    im intrigued
the light above beats down
i reach for it, but quickly it fades

hope is a flame in the distance
flickering before its extinguished
im
                                    left here in the dark
alone and one with the sea

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i just want something new
im sick of this used up atmosphere
and im wating to be taken away

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self asteem is a waste of oxygen
fuel me to get you where your going
you erase me and I am deeply enthused
dont make their insecuritys yours

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And I have been so mistaken in my oblivious
State of mind
And I have been so ignorant as to choose
To make you a part of me
And I have come to this conclusion on account for you

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Would we be where we are now without this?
I guess it doesnt matter
Would I be where I was now if I hadnt found you?
I guess I had to
I cant stop it
you cant stop it
they cant stop it
its imminent

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distance is indifferent
your still farther
im still closer
we still fall apart

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a wish is forever
lust is for the moment
pornography is a waste

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smooth as silk
I long for your touch
The sun goes out
And I feel you

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Control you
With hold from your full potential
Break you down
Self asteem is a disease

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Everything is different now
Static failed

Everything falls apart

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Nothing new
Used and uninformed
Facts are a waste
Nothing can stop us now

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Change is to much
My insecurities take hold
Memories of a better time
This place is not where I belong

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Normal
Adjusting to comfort my own
Self being is unlimited to the walls of our own confinement
Shadowous like a cancer
Conformity

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Machine
Cold ed reptilian
The sets in
Chased over thousands of miles of fear and pain
It comes to this

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eyes closed mouth open wide waiting for something of no surprise
the air left my lungs and the scream wont come out
i am silence where the wave fell back
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Poetry

The art of the wounded
Pictures tell more then words
And its all just a waste

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Life, the disgusted
Life, the dysfunctional
Life, the everlasting moment

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Please dont take any of these without asking 
i have
                                    put my heart and soul into them and they are special
to me, so please dont take them, or you will have     d me of 
all
                                    i have left